Things don't always come out as intended.
Today I was going, or should I say hoping to go up north and meet up with jefe and his friends for a short time. My intent was to surprise him, but I thought better of it and told him of my intentions.
At first he sounded happy, then given the situation, he suggested it would be better for me to stay home. I told him I was hurt, and why. His words weren't intended to hurt, but they did nonetheless. Doesn't he want to be near me as much as I want to be near him?
I went from elated to crushed within an hour.
I'm still crushed.
I'm having a very hard time with it.
The reasons were valid and thoughtful of me, but it's left me sad and empty.
I wanted nothing more than a few hours in his presence, to get that physical reassurance and mental affirmation of 'him'.
We parted the last time on a sombre note... I needed that rush of happiness I get when I see his face.
But, the D has spoken, and I am home. Missing him so much it physically aches.
Is he aching too?
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